Monday, July 05, 2010

subs & book clubs!



I'm very thankful for the sweet and talented yoga teachers that will be subbing while I'm away. What a great time for you to get to learn from other teachers?! I know that you'll appreciate them as much as me.

You can view the classes and teachers here.

I also left info about book club out of the email newsletter. Thanks to Jeanne for the info...

This month, we're back to our regular time of noon on Sunday, July 25. Our book, "The Prophet" by Kahlil Gibran, proves to be another inspiring read. K will be leading the discussion. The Morris Book Shop will have copies available for us -- or will be able to order them with a quick turn-around.

See you there -- and bring a friend and a veggie snack, if you wish. And remember, you are welcome to attend even if you haven't read the book.


Off to visit a place so warm, so tropical, so magical, so full of yoga love that they hang yoga mats out to dry on a line. :)

Sunday, July 04, 2010

retreat theme & bathing suit story


I just finished all of my materials for the retreat to Mexico! Yay, so happy! Now all I've gotta do is get them copied and stuffed into the folders for retreatees. This year's theme is "Journey into Bliss" and we'll be working through the koshas.

Yoga classes feel so divine for a reason. The reason being that we are much more than a body. Much more than mind. The practice of yoga lets us touch on the other aspects or layers of oneself.

Essentially they are
*body
*breath
*mind
*wisdom
*bliss

They start at the outermost level (physical) and work more inward (to spirit). Each day we'll start with a short talk about the kosha of the day, have a practice geared to this kosha, and in the handouts retreatees will have notes about ways to explore and bring the kosha into balance. I've also got a list of journaling inquiries for each kosha.

Hoping this will give enough form to learn about the koshas in a group setting and also freedom for those wanting to explore the koshas in greater depth. That's all for now. Don't want to give too much away since some of you reading will be attending. But there will be a few surprises.

Must go now and get to packing. One exciting thing from the weekend was finding the perfect bathing suit that I was looking for. Andy and I were in Owensboro this weekend. I always love going cause Andy's mom has every magazine under the sun. And well....I'm a sucker for mags. I was looking through Health and flipped to the section for bathing suits. You know the bit, "find the perfect suite for you."

I browsed through and saw a really sweet one piece. I looked at the brand (Caribbean Joe) and the price ($75) and thought...."that would be perfect!".
But knew I didn't have time to order and was only hoping this late in the game that I'd find a new bathing suit period.

BUT I went shopping with Andy's mom. We went to TJ Maxx first. I went straight to the bathing suits...flipping through the racks....then coming straight to the exact bating suit I just saw in Health magazine. I tried it on. Purchased it for only $19. And walked out a super happy camper. :) Still can't believe it!

**Pic is of my brother and sis, her first flight to Mexico last January. Next up is my mama and her first flight! Love being a part of it.**

yoga classes


Greetings Yogis!

Just wanted you to know that we are having all of our regularly scheduled classes this weekend. You can enjoy yoga today at 10:30 and tomorrow at 4:30 or 6:00. Enjoy!

Wishing you a day filled with sunshine, sparkles, and happy summer moments. :)

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

slow down summer

How can it already be July? Dear sweet July, how did you come so quickly? This morning I was thinkin' about how terribly excited I am about going to Mexico for three whole weeks.

Three whole weeks.... Yip,Yip, Yooray!!

But you know what I find myself so very task oriented that the days just breeze on by. I complete one task. Then another. Then another.

Doing all the things I need to do before leaving the country for three whole weeks. Which makes me feel like I wish my life away. Like I'm not really present with what I'm doing at the moment.

Case in point, last week I retreated at a local b&b to get all my work completed for the upcoming training in Mexico. It felt so very great to be there with the intention of getting serious work done for this training. And it felt so very good to be there, to feel in the flow, to have uninterrupted time to devote to something that I loved working on.

I would stop and go out walk around the horse farm, hop over to my yoga mat and do some yoga, sit on the balcony and have a snack, talk to Andy. Then back to work. Happily back to work.

As soon as I finished it was on to do work for the upcoming retreat. Again super fun work. More goodness. More stuff that I love. But I'm getting the feeling that summer is slipping away and I want it to linger longer.

So rather than blame myself and my tendency to fill myself with stuff to do, I'm gonna cut myself some slack and think about ways to find more space in my life. And my planner too. Andy will be back in school shortly and summer will be over sooner rather than later.

Things I could do:
**Give myself a day or two between projects to not jump right into something new.

**Schedule play time into each day. I'm seeing a reoccurring theme of the importance of play for me. This could take form of a dance class, or dancing in my entry foyer, hula hooping (we do have some at the studio thanks to Lisa, playing a video game with Andy, using the fabulous Shift Deck from Grace, blowing bubbles, etc.

**Explore not talking work stuff with Andy, my family, and friends for a week and see how I feel afterwards....better or worse?

**Let the sand and sea work their magic while I'm in Mexico. To plan less, to play more. To sit with the mystery of life. Be open to magic.

Then summer might slow down.?
It might not.
But either way, maybe I'll be ok with it?

**No photo today. I'm on my "pink book" (netbook) at the hair salon. Gettin a cut and how some new hi-lights. That says summer, right

Friday, June 25, 2010

usa



This is pretty great. Watch the guy at 3:30. Sheer excitement.
Happy Friday my friends. Have a magical day.

Sarah and I will be making eye pillows for the Mexico retreatees today.
Pretty excited about some creative fun. :)

Thursday, June 24, 2010

just plain happy


Greetings Friends!

I'm at the studio enjoying a full plate of work. Right now I'm preparing for a four hour long session I'll be teaching in Louisville this weekend to a yoga teacher training group. Topics include intro To ayurveda and yoga therapy.

I'm looking through some of my books and manuals and compiling my information. I ran across the passage by Henry Miller and wanted to share:

"It's good to be just plain happy;
it's a little better to know that you're happy;
but to understand that you're happy
and to know why and how.....and still be happy,
be happy in the being and the knowing,
well that is beyond happiness, that is bliss."

I spend a lot of time debating happiness, satisfaction, fulfillment, bliss, and the idea of contentment. This statement is really sticking.

To believe with our whole heart that we can indeed create the things we need to fulfill our needs, hopes, and desires is blowing me away these days. And to find happiness and freedom within those places....the exciting and the ordinary is the thing I'm looking for most these days.

How about you? In what ways are you just plain happy these days?

**Photo of baby Zoey born one day before my birthday last year....a happy day indeed.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

ordinary feats


"This is my practice. It is not anything special you need to learn. It is not some new information you need to get. It is nothing you haven't heard before. It is just a turn you might not yet have made, or made again, and again, and again. A turn toward intimate engagement with the life you already have.

The instructions are in your hands. And when you follow them, you arrive clear and fresh - free of heartache, failure, fear, anger, and judgement - into a ready made life of deep peace and genuine satisfaction. Fulfillment derives not from lofty achievements, but from ordinary feats. It arrives not once in a lifetime, but every moment of the livelong day." ~ Karen Maezen Miller, Hand Wash Cold

I just finished this book today and I highly recommend it. It's a quick yet deeply satisfying book at only 169 pages. The subtitle "care instructions for an ordinary life" and book content in general speaks to my cute and restless self. :)

PS - This time in exactly three weeks I'll be meeting new students from across the US and greeting students from KY at our yoga retreat to Tulum, Mexico! And enjoying that beautiful Caribbean water. :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

owning all of mySelf



I've been thinking a lot about the many "selves" that exists within each of us. This started a couple weeks ago when life coach Grace came into town and presented to our teacher training group. It continued on as I began my readings for my Ayurveda course. My first chapter is on Philosophy, and it's really juicy.

I enjoyed a section in which it speaks about health and disease. The American Heritage Dictionary defines health as, "the state of an organism functioning normally without disease or abnormality. Any state of optimal functioning, well being or progress."

In Sanskrit (the language of yoga and ayurveda) the word for health is svastha. "Sva" means self and "stha" means established. So svastha means established in the self. This really appeals to me much more than our western definition.

In most Vedic literature there are two "selves". There is "Self" spelled with a capital S, the one which signifies our highest self, the part that is connected to a higher power, the one that expresses our highest virtues.

Then there is "self" spelled with a lower case "s", signifying our lower self, the part that is ego based. This sense of self would be called "self esteem" in the West.

Ayurveda says that to enjoy perfect health we need to bring each of our “selves” to the table. We need our higher Self to be awake, aware and connected to a higher purpose thus guiding us towards self realization. We also need our lower self to have a healthy outlook, a positive self esteem, to interact with the world in supportive ways, to teach and guide us on journey towards bliss.

See...so juicy!!

This led me to think about one of the sessions with Grace on personas. We explored them in a playful, identified different personas, understanding that who we are can be quite complex and that at different times in our lives we need to call on different personas.

We identified personas that have brought recognition.
Personas that have gotten us into trouble.
Ones that have brought success and so on.

I am seeing these as my "subselves".

Some of my personas I identified were:
**Tender Foot (the one that is reeeallly sensitive)
**Rebel Girl (the one that is resistant to authority)
**The Dreamer (the one that believes anything is possible)
**The Wise One (the teacher, thinker, philosopher)
**Cute & Restless (Lisa shared a reading one day in yoga class and all I recall was something about "acutely restless", which I immediately resonated with. Upon telling my Yoga BF Shelli whom is equally restless, she thought I said "cute and restless" which is much more fun)
**Mrs. Fix It (the one that wants to take save everyone and immediately wants to take their pain away)

Upon first working with this I had to think about how it resonated for me in terms of being authentic. That's a word I use a lot. And an idea that is important to me. More so now that I continue to bring forth who I am without wanting to change me.

I looked up the definition of authentic. Merriam Webster says:
Authentic mean being actually and exactly what is claimed. authentic implies being fully trustworthy as according with fact.

Wikipedia says that in the study of communication persona is a term given to describe the versions of self that all individuals possess. Behaviours are selected according to the desired impression an individual wishes to create when interacting with other people. Therefore, personae presented to other people vary according to the social environment the person is engaged in, in particular the persona presented before others will differ from the persona an individual will present when he/she happens to be alone.

I came to the conclusion that owning all of my "selves" is an authentic expression of who I am. And that acting in accordance to who I am (which may mean accessing one of my personas) is being authentic.

Not expressing my authenticity would be acting from the role of "The Wise One" when inside I was wanting to express "Rebel Girl"....not owning my truth, and not fully expressing what I was feeling.

I'm just in the beginning stages of thinking/playing with this. I'm sure there is much to be said!

So, what do you think? About how health is defined, what it means to you, all of your "selves", etc. Would really love your thoughts on this one. :)

PS - Photo above is during one of my rebel girl moments...hence the look on my mama's face.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

yearning for good



I, the fiery light of divine wisdom,
I ignite the beauty of the plains,
I sparkle the waters.
I burn the sun and the moon and the stars,
With wisdom I order all rightly.
I adorn the earth.
I am the breeze that nurtures all things green.
I am the rain coming from the dew
That causes the grasses to laugh
With the joy of life.
I call forth tears, the aroma of holy work.
I am the yearning for good.

~HILDEGARD OF BINGEN (1098 - 1179)

Friday, June 11, 2010

saying yes


I'm not sure where I first learned the idea of....
"Every time we say yes to something, we're saying no to something else." And vice versa.

I imagine that I really got the idea of this during those times of being really busy. Times of saying yes to so much, not really getting what I was saying no to at the time. If that makes any sense.

Teacher training just ended on Sunday. We met for four intense days straight. Plus Andy and I had company for five days. Even before the training had ended I had decided to go to Louisville to participate in a yoga workshop Friday and Saturday. Tracy was even going with me.

At one point during the weekend I told Andy of my intention. The one of going away for the night to a yoga workshop. Andy is always wonderfully supportive of me, my dreams, and the things I want to do. He looks at me and says, "Is that really what you're needing?"

Hmmmm, good question. I hadn't allowed myself the time or the space to think about that. The trouble with doing something that you love so very much (as in yoga) is that you just want to keep doing. Or I do anyway. That's my nature. I love to learn. I love to experience. And I felt like a great teacher was going to be close by (Doug Keller at Yoga East) and teaching on a topic I want to learn more about (yoga therapy).

I realized that he had a point. What I needed was to stay put. To let myself decompress. To take a yoga break of some sort.

That's what I did today....well a yoga break for me. And I've had such a fabulous day. I taught a private session this morning that felt really rewarding. A sweet yogini from my "neck of the woods". I was pretty amazed by the amount of body awareness she had, the grace she possessed in her practice, and the reason she was wanting to learn more about yoga....which was for a spiritual practice. And the bonus was she bought a house in Whiteburg AND met my brother Joel yesterday at Summit City. What a small world?

I got to enjoy an hour long yoga class at the studio taught by Lisa Miller. I was so happy to see the yoginis filing into the studio for class and I was looking forward practicing alongside them. Many times I find it a challenge to slide into student mode at the studio, but today it was so easy. The practice felt good. The space felt perfect. The students and the teacher....just perfect.

I left the studio to meet Sarah at Stella's. We had a great lunch then walked down the street to Cuppa for my first visit. Oh my....what a sweet place?! I loved every single thing about it. The paint, the decorations, the teacups you get to choose, the smell of the scones, the tea of course, and the delightful owner that was there. It's really clear that this is a place and a business close to her heart. I love when you can get that the moment you step into a place, a business. Sarah and I spent over two hours together catching up and talking about our upcoming retreat to Tulum. I'm so very excited that Sarah is coming along as an assistant for the retreat.

We talked about the teaching schedule, possible themes for the week, the needs of the group members, goodies and extras to take along, and of course the food, the treatments, and the general special-ness of Tulum. I so love that Sarah gets how special Tulum is to me. And how special Tulum is in general.

I come home and spend some time on our front porch reading over my materials for my Ayurveda training. I received my materials this week along with an email from my master teacher who is based out of CA. I've already dove into the textbook and started my homework. The chapter I'm reading now is on philosophy, and it's so juicy. I just love this stuff. This weekend I'll start making flashcards of all the Sanskrit words and phrases that are new to me. Feels good to be in student mode in this way. I have my first phone conversation with my teacher tomorrow at 3:00. Looking forward to that!

Andy and I decide to go to the Movie Tavern and see "The A Team." And guess what?! It was so good. Neither Andy nor I enjoy action flicks. But we both grew up watching The A Team. It was clever, funny, and exciting. I dined on the ALT (avocado, lettuce and tomato), laughed, and held hands with Andy. Plus Bradly Cooper is in it. Need I say more?

Now at the end of the day I find myself feeling so happy that I chose to say no to the workshop and yes to....
time at the studio teaching and practicing
time with Sarah
time with Ayurveda
and time with Andy.

So happy that my husband was brilliant enough to ask me, "Is that what you're needing?" Cause that question allowed me to stop and think about it. What I was most needing was to stay connected to the yogini, friend and wife within.

Have a happy happy weekend my friends. :)

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

oil spill



I received this poem below from a dear friend. Mary Oliver always has a way with words and putting things into perspective....most of times which make sense to me. While I'm still completely heart broken about what all is happening with the oil spill these words offer some hope....

Lead

Here is a story
to break your heart.
Are you willing?
This winter
the loons came to our harbor
and died, one by one,
of nothing we could see.
A friend told me
of one on the shore
that lifted its head and opened
the elegant beak and cried out
in the long, sweet savoring of its life
which, if you have heard it,
you know is a sacred thing,
and for which, if you have not heard it,
you had better hurry to where
they still sing.
And, believe me, tell no one
just where that is.
The next morning
this loon, speckled
and iridescent and with a plan
to fly home
to some hidden lake,
was dead on the shore.
I tell you this
to break your heart,
by which I mean only
that it break open and never close again
to the rest of the world.

~ Mary Oliver ~

**AP Photo/Charlie Riedel
***More photos here

Monday, June 07, 2010

mind spill


I've got lots floating around on my mind. Things I want to think about, practice, and write about. This is a total spill. Stay with me if you can. Here goes:

I'm thinking about how yesterday my BF (as in best friend, not boyfriend as in Jon Bon Jovi)totally called me out about not posting on the blog since last Tuesday. "Geez, how am I supposed to get my enlightened moments?" Or something along those lines. I report back to her about the business and the mind clutter (which of course she already fully knows)

Which then led her to make a comment about she can tell when I'm posting just for the sake of posting. You know the posts that have absolutely no heart. No real meaning. There just there to occupy space. And to keep me from feeling like I'm slacking on the blogging job.

Which leads me to think about quantity vs. quality in blogging land. And where I fit in.

I'm thinking about the finale of our yoga teacher training. Meeting nearly 40 hours over the course of four days. I'm thinking about how far they've come in such a short amount of time. And how this training is over, but it's really just the beginning in so many ways. For them. For me.

Thinking about how it was them, and their joy in learning about yoga, and being a part of this group that inspired me to study Ayurveda.

I'm thinking about our emotional closing. How I cry each and every year at the closing. Something so bittersweet, so touching about these moments in a circle and acknowledging each other and the journey we've been on. Definitely thinking about the Mexican chocolate cake Jennifer made, the gift they shared and the sweet words written on a card. Reading what they wrote was so moving. Such kind words, addressed to me.

To which I shared with Liz and Tony. Tony reports that he wants to do something to help people. And Liz thinks it's a brilliant ego booster that should be placed on the fridge to see everyday.

I'm thinking about having Grace at my house and teaching at the studio. The odd chance that we were connected from here in KY all the way to CA with three connections between us.

Thinking about her work. And the amazing teacher that she is. Thinking about the one question I have that led me to Grace. Thinking about how happy I am that Andy could join in for one day of her sessions. And learn about ease and flow, playing the part of victim, villain, and hero. And the personas. Ahhh the personas. Who knew we had so many? I'm now identifying mine and giving them names.

Thinking about three weeks in Mexico. My moms first flight. The house we'll stay at on the beach of Tulum. The food we'll eat. The laughs we'll share. Thinking about the ten days I'll share with Andy in Mexico. Our first time together in Mexico since our honeymoon over nine years ago. Thinking about our plans to renew our vows next year for our 10th.

Thinking about how I've been wanting to grow my teaching, expand my teaching and attract people from different places. The people coming to retreat in Mexico from the studio, FL, CA, VA, and others. And the emails and calls that keep coming from people for the teacher training in Tulum. Canada, New Mexico, New York, California....so cool.

Thinking about taking it a little easy and enjoying the summer. Sitting on my front porch. Cooking more. Thinking of celebrating our 100 year old house. Spending time with my family. Thinking of Liz and Tony's wedding. And the most beautiful wedding invitations I've ever seen that were made with hand. And heart. And the shoes for the dress.

Teaching. Reading. Studying. Writing.

Thinkin...
Thinkin...
Thinkin...

How lucky I am.
And what a charmed life it is.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

mind clutter



Greetings Yoga Friends,

Today was a busy day. The kinda busy day where all day long you're puttin out little yoga fires.

First off the cleaners that were supposed to be at my house at 9:00 didn't show up. This was the very first time Andy and I have ever called extra help in. We're super excited to be hosting yogini/life coach extraordinaire, Grace. But that also meant that the big blue house really needed some love. So yes, first time calling in house cleaners....and they don't show. Hmmmm, is that a message I hear from the universe, "Dont be a lazy ass. Clean your house."

I call Andy explaining to him all the stuff I needed to do for work, and now we had to add cleaning the house to the list. Thank god Andy doesn't mind gettin' his hands dirty and cleaning house. He tells me to get rid of the dust (he's really allergic) and he'll do the rest.

I had two privates scheduled today and one group class. This morning somewhere between dusting and sweeping I realize that I've booked a private during the teen yoga class.

Run upstairs and email both privates. Try to re-schedule for earlier today and next week. Note to self....it may be time to start using the fancy software to book privates and such. So it tells me things when I'm not smart enough to know. :)

Back to cleaning and I get phone calls from two of our darling teachers that will need subs for today. Totally totally understand their reasons. Neither needed to be teaching today.

Run back upstairs to send an email to Jeanne (who is officially my angel at this point). Check in about book club date for June and subbing. She is totally on top of it. And she can sub not only one, but three classes this week. I **love** you Jeanne. (Pssst that's her above chillin' in Tulum).

Run errands to get some things for this week. Work a bit on the June newsletter. Get to studio. Somewhere between cleaning the studio, fixing student accounts, working on the newsletter, trying to find a sub for the Thursday morning class (which has now been cancelled for this week, fyi), locating/reviewing teaching notes for the final four days of yoga teacher training......

I got it....what some people experience much of the time.
The mental loops.
The mind clutter.
Racing thoughts.
Loss of focus.
Overwhelm.
Vata imbalance. Ick!

No fun.
Certainly not healthy.
Thank goodness Meredith brought has sun-shiny self to the studio. And well....she's just as good as a rainbow, as refreshing as they come.

And she brought me back two seashells from the west coast.

As she was starting her teen yoga class I excused myself to Starbucks for a latte AND a brownie. Yep, that's right. It was oooey goooey and delicious. I didn't have a journal on me but as I was leaving the studio I grabbed three sheets of blank paper.

As I ate and drank I folded my pieces of paper into a little book where I proceeded to make notes about myself like:

"I am sensitive. And tender too. I have to be careful because it's really easy for me to take on the pain and suffering of others. Not good. Not healthy for me. Must learn to be supportive...to the ones I love and to myself."

For nearly an hour I wrote.
For nearly an hour I got away from the to-do's, the tasks, and worries.

It was just what the yogic doctor ordered (so maybe she wouldn't have prescribed the brownie, but whatever). I went back to the studio with a smile on my face and excited to teach.

And guess what the theme of today's class was...
Yep, the mind clutter and how our practice is an invitation to be truly present, use our mind in a more healthy way, and go with the flow of life....even when the cleaners don't show up.

Friday, May 28, 2010

dance, dream, chant and other weird things i do


Today I'm thinking about the things I do that help me feel balanced, that bring me happiness, and serve as general goodness. Things that help relax me, help me stay calm and carry on:

• Read a magazine (yoga journal, people, and body & soul are faves)
• Take a long bath with a lush bomb
• Walk (and sometimes skip) in the cemetery. As my brother Joel says, “it’s impossible to skip and feel sad at the same time.” We most recently skipped together at Kripalu. I highly recommend you try it.
• Bust a yoga pose….down dog & yogic squat are faves)
• Spend time in my yoga room
• Go to a bookstore
• Get a cup of coffee and write in my journal
• Go to bed early
• Pull weeds (this is something I don’t necessarily like, but it does help relax me)
• Sing positive mantras, chant, recite poems and engage in other things considered weird by lots of Kentuckians.
• Riding on a country road
• Dance wildly in the foyer of my old home
• Enjoy a glass of wine while cooking and listening to Pandora
• Dream of Mexico
• Listen to music
• Teach a yoga class. Nothing makes me focus as much as this. And when I’m focused and present, I’m usually calm and relaxed.
• Go through magazines and pull words and images out to update my vision board
• Use scents that remind me of good things and help invoke relaxation (fave candle I discovered years ago in TX, copal incense from Mexico, sandalwood incense from Chopra Center, yummy Chakra body mist spray Tracy gifted me with from Aveda, and another aromatherapy oil from Whole Foods.

How about you…..What's on your list?

Monday, May 24, 2010

mondo beyondo update


Some of you may recall that last fall I took the online Mondo Beyondo course (which I highly recommend). It's an online class full of other dreamers and the sole purpose is to dream any little thing your heart wants to dream. To "put it out there", right? Then sending a lil' message to the universe to bring only the dreams that are "divinely right for me and the best thing for the world."

I love the last part. I love the idea that the dreams that do come to me are divinely right for me, my heart, and the world. Because lets face it...sometimes dreams don't come true. So for me rather than becoming cynical about the process of dreaming I can simply rest in a place knowing that perhaps that for whatever reason, that is not a dream that's divinely right for me. For a dreamer and believer like myself, that was a really important part of the process.

My Mondo Beyondo list has been underneath my bed since last September. I only shared what was on my list with Andy. No one else. It felt right to keep my little dreams more private. Last Wednesday on my birthday I took my two pieces of paper from underneath my mattress. In the cafe at Joseph Beth I took my list out to review. I was pretty happy to see the dreams that have come true and the ones that are in the works. Here is a rundown:

**Learn more about Ayurveda - will begin my studies with California College of Ayurveda within the month

**Learn how to prepare delicious vegetarian food - this has greatly improved with the help of retreating at the beginning of January where I learned great tips and recipes from an Appalachian vegetarian. Plus learning more about Ayurveda and Indian cooking at Kripalu is greatly helping too.

**Be serenaded by Jon Bon Jovi - so it wasn't a one on one deal, or a small gathering as I have dreamed, but it was a concert in Atlanta with Andy and thousands of other fan. ;)

**Spend one to two months per year in Tulum working and playing - this is in the works for this year. Have myself scheduled to be there for over six weeks this year.

**Go on retreat to Kripalu - check, did Ayurveda Spring Cleanse in April

**Go to Mexico with my mom and sister - place tickets are purchased for July! This is actually a pretty big one since my mom has never flown and never been out of the country. Been so exciting to watch all of this unfold. Can't wait!

**Feed my body foods that support and nourish me physically, mentally, and emotionally - again with cooking more, making more green smoothies, juicing more often, doing cleanses, and learn more about cooking, the foods I'm eating are much better.

**Connect and learn from my father. Inspire him to be more healthy - I haven't put this on my blog, but three weeks ago today my dad was in the hospital in ICU. It was really scary for me. Since that day I've called him nearly everyday, I'm getting to know more about him, sharing Ayurveda, and encouraging him to make healthier decisions. And he's doing really great. 40+ years of smoking and he hasn't smoked in over three weeks! Yippee! Needless to say when I saw this on the list that I made last September, it was an eye opener.

So there they are....the dreams that I put out there last fall that have or are becoming a reality. If you haven't allowed yourself to dream in a bit, I highly encourage it. :)

PS - the pic above is a note I wrote at the beginning of the Mondo Beyondo class and have taped on my bathroom mirror. It's a daily reminder to dream. :)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

thank you


I've had quite the delight-full birthday. Greeted the day with self massage (abhyanga). A practice I brought back from the ayurveda spring cleanse at Kripalu. Followed by neti pot, shower, then 30 minute meditation. There is truly something special about starting the day in this way. Giving myself time and engaging in self care.

I got ready and took myself to one of my fave places in Lexington...Joseph Beth. I got there when they opened at 9:00. Went to the cafe and treated myself to a cappuccino and lemon poppyseed scone. I sat down at a table and pulled my Mondo Beyondo list out. It's been chilling underneath my mattress for months now. I thought today would be a great day to review it. I went through my list and was totally surprised and happy to see some of my Mondo Beyondo dreams coming true (plan to dedicate a whole post to this). I also browsed through a new book I recently purchased and thought about the theme for the free yoga classes I would be teaching.

I spent over two hours at Joseph Beth. Perfect. I went over to Whole Foods and purchased myself some aromatherapy oil to keep in my purse. I've been playing with this idea of practicing santosha (contentment) as often as I can, as often as I think about it. Truly hoping to embody this word someday (which somehow seems a little counter intuitive to the whole idea of contentment...but). I purchased a scent with the hope that every time I use and smell it it will take me to a place of contentment (perhaps another blog too). Also got some treats to share with the yogis today post class. Little baby bundt cakes and two bite brownies. Yum

Classes were really good for me. We talked about the idea of purna, which in Sanskrit is this idea of wholeness and completion. Since I'm always trying to improve myself and always striving for more, I thought my birthday would be a great day just to Be. And feel perfect, complete, and whole....just as I am. Also played a sweet cd gifted to me by Anne Dean, darling yogini she is. :) It was titled "A Yogi Birthday." Love it.

Andy gifted me with exactly what I've been wanting, a new blender. During our cleanse in which I was making 12 drinks a day, I quickly realized it was time for a new one. Can't wait to try a new green smoothie out with it.

Andy and I went for a yummy dinner to Asian Wind. I've only been here two times now. And oh my it is so very delicious. The vegetarian food is so perfect that even Andy opted for a veggie dish. Also got ice cream from Graeters. Andy and I are a bit of ice cream fanatics. This was definitely not a ayurveda eating sorta day. Back on the wagon tomorrow.

At home I took a nice long bath (with a Lush bomb) in the dark, no lights, no music, none of the extras I typically love. Just closed my eyes. breathed, and felt so very thankful for the celebration of another birthday. For being surrounded by such kind people. So much love today. Really really special.

Now off to bed early to watch "The Lovely Bones". I really have no idea what it's about. But totally looking forward to slithering into bed early and watching a movie.

Again thanks to all of you. You fill my heart with much gladness. Much more than you could know.

PS - Silly pic of my brother during our time at Kripalu.

birthday treat



"Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm... As you grow older you will discover that you have two hands. One for helping yourself, the other for helping others."
-Audrey Hepburn

I'm pretty excited to be celebrating my 33rd birthday today! I consider myself so very lucky for many reasons. One big reason being that each of you support me in doing what I truly adore.

I recently heard this quote, "When asked what gift he wanted for his birthday, the yogi replied: "I wish no gifts, only presence."

Today I am welcoming each of you to join me in celebrating my birthday with a FR*EE yoga class. I teach at 12:00 and 4:30. Would love for you to be present.

Cheers,
Sharon

PS - Andy has field day today and tomorrow! Such a BIG BIG day for him and the kids. Asking the weather to kindly cooperate with him. :)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

baby zoey


It's easy to forget the stresses
when I look into her sweet sweet eyes
and see her smile.
A smile that lights the room up
from far far away.

There is a sense of such joy
with this little babe.

On the day before my birthday
I celebrate this sweet little gal.
Am thinking I can learn a thing or two
from her.

Monday, May 17, 2010

daily affirmation



Feeling quite inspired by this young gal. Never too young to begin. :)

Thursday, May 13, 2010

mesmerized



by this idea....

"Each day I do the dirty work, the effort that attracts no notice but my own, and in this very place I find the ordinary ingredients for genuine fulfillment."
Karen Maezen Miller

I read this quote (it's from the Book Hand Wash Cold) on a blog a couple of days ago and I'm pretty blown away by it. Definitely not there most days, probably not most moments. But I'm holding the idea of it close to my heart. And reveling in the beauty and simplicity of the thought of it.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

how knowing my values helped me make a big decision



I've been debating on something for a couple of weeks now and still hadn't come up with a clear answer until today.


I tried all of my "old" tricks for making decisions....

Getting input from trusted people that know, love, and support me.

Setting an intention of getting clarity during my yoga practices.

Meditating on it.

Making a list of the pro's and con's.

Journaling about it.

Asking the universe for a sign, then flipping open a book and seeing what I land on (I know you've tried this?!).

Nothing seemed to be working. I still couldn't make a decision.

At 6:30 this morning I was up in my yoga room at home. Incense and candle lit, a soft glow just outside my window, nice soothing music playing in the background. It was a beautiful morning, a beautiful moment. I glanced over at one of the few items in my yoga room, my vision board.

I scanned the images and the words, all of which have some sort of meaning for me. Then I asked myself, "Is this the right time to embark on a new training?"

One at a time my eyes landed on the values that I identified for myself the last time I retreated to Tulum, Mexico. I saw them there on my board....

personal growth
wisdom
service
spirit
freedom
abundance
creativity

I thought again about my desire to learn, study, and practice Ayurveda (the science of life, also known as the sister science of yoga).

One by one I went through these values that I had identified for myself. I got a clear "Yes" on each one. Becoming a student of Ayurveda aligns with each of these values. I love how these values are a compass of sorts for me. As I'm navigating life and making decisions I keep coming back to them and they continue to guide me.


I just sent my application in to the California College of Ayurveda. If accepted I'll be participating in distance learning and hands on training that equals 545 hours of study. I'm super excited in taking this next step and learning even more about the "whole" person - physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and how creating harmony and balance with each leads to a vibrant and healthy life. And of course I can't wait to share what I'm learning with all of you!

PS - Above pics of me and my friend Debra in Tulum, writing our biggie word in the sand.

PSS - If this sounds like something of value to you, join me this Saturday from 11:00-2:00 and explore your own values!

Monday, May 10, 2010

what propels you forward?


That's the question I'm asking myself today. I looked up the definition of propel and it says...
To cause to move forward or onward.
To impel, drive, or cause to move forwards.

I got to thinking about what propelled me forward in the earliest days of my teaching career. It was all about a vision I held dearly for myself. One that included embarking on a journey of healing on a physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual level. A vision that allowed me to be creative and flexible in my job and how I spend my days and time. And a huge part of my vision was being surrounded by other like minded, good hearted, soul-full beings that want to be healthy in the fullest of ways and wanting to live life with passion and purpose.

I have also spent time asking myself what continues to propel me forward today....day by day. I'm feeling like some much of it continues to be about my own personal journey. A journey towards sound health in body and mind. A journey towards wholeness in every sense of the word. It's in this process of discovering, learning, and living, that I heal a bit more(on a good day:). Then sharing this with others with the hope, the wish that it helps them in their own personal journey. Living, learning, sharing....that's what is propelling me forward.

So I ask you the ever important question...what propels you forward?

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

may goodness

Mark your planner for these events!

Free Mother's Day Yoga Class
Sunday May 9, 4:00 - 5:00
call 859-433-7787 or email
barefootworks(at)hotmail(dot)com to
reserve your space!

Radiant Yogini
with Sharon Tessandori
Saturday May 15, 11:00-2:00

Community Yoga
Sunday May 16, 4:00
Free

Beauty: A New Definition
with Sat Purkh
Sunday May 23, 1:00 - 3:30

Barefoot Works Book Club
(our knitting group is breaking till fall, but we've replaced with a book club!)
Sunday May 30, 12:00





Barefoot Works Book Club
The Untethered Soul

The Barefoot Works community is starting a book club! Our plan is to meet monthly to discuss books that are relevant and resonate with the Barefoot Works community. We will read and discuss one book per month.

Come join us for our first session on May 30, 2010, at noon. At this meeting, we will discuss our first book, "The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself" by Michael Singer. We will also select books for upcoming sessions, so come prepared with your suggestions.

Bring your book and a vegetarian snack, if you wish, and join us for interesting discussions. We hope to see you there!

"The Untethered Soul" is widely available at local booksellers or online. Amazon has it for $11.53 - http://www.amazon.com/Untethered-Soul-Journey-Beyond-Yourself/dp/1572245379/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1272630557&sr=8-1.


More details here!!

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

hellllooo


Greetings Yogis!

Feels like I've been away for a really long time. My trip to Kripalu last week with my brother was pretty amazing. I have pages and pages of notes and things I want to share. I met some special people and the teacher was phenomenal.

Since returning home I'm dealing with some challenges that have thrown me for a loop. When this happens I find myself needing to get quiet and deal with the rawness of emotions.

Which isn't easy for me (staying present with the sadness part). But I'm trying. And really making a conscious effort of applying so much of what I learned last week like waking early, doing a self massage, netti pot, cooking nutritious food, connecting to the earth and so forth. Doing the things I know I need to do to have a healthy mind and body.

So looking forward to getting back into the groove of things and getting back to teaching my classes. I do miss them....and you too. :)

Have a beautiful Tuesday.

PS - I still want to share about the last days of mine and Andy's cleanse which really worked out great in the end!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

last night's kirtan



it was pretty darn cool. and special too. :)

Friday, April 23, 2010

magic moment


I just saw this over on Superhero blog and it took my breath away....had to share with you.

"Every day, God gives us, as well as the sun, a moment when it is possible to change anything that is causing us unhappiness. The magic moment is the moment when a "yes" or a "no" can change our whole existence. Every day, we try to pretend that we do not see the moment, that it does not exist, that today is the same as yesterday and that tomorrow will be the same too.

However, anyone who pays close attention to his day will discover the magic moment. It might be hidden in the instant that we put the key in the door in the morning, in the moment of silence after supper, in the thousand and one things that appear to us to be the same.

This moment exists, a moment in which all the strength of the stars flows through us and allows us to perform miracles." Paulo Coelho

Wow...happy Friday.

PS - Detox details coming later. :)

Thursday, April 22, 2010

it's called a deotx for a reason....did you think it was gonna be fun?


So clearly by the title you can see that the emotions were not totally stable yesterday. It was a bit of a roller coaster for me. The day started off beautifully. I woke at 6:45 naturally, quite a bit earlier as times when my alarm goes off at 7:30 I could still use a few more zzzz'sss. Started the day with shower, then meditation, and my first green juice of the day made with spinach, kale, cucumber, apple, and lemons.

Made a strawberry banana smoothie to have a bit later and put it in the fridge. It was so pretty yesterday. I decided to stroll down the street to CVS and get a few things for my upcoming trip to Kripalu.

As I was walking I had one of those special moments when life just feels full, and good, and you feel awake and alive. Yet nothing BIG or special is happening. As I walk I observe the green of the grass, a beautiful tree filled with pink blooms and a carpet of pink on the sidewalk. I hear my footsteps. This is true contentment, santosha in Sanskrit. In the moment I wished I had memorized these words by e.e cummings, cause they felt so appropriate:

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes.


I was really able to appreciate the moment for what it was without wanting it to be different, without wanting to hold onto to it. I breathed the moment in knowing that later in the day I would likely encounter hunger, thus resulting in crankiness.

Guess what? I was right! I had my smoothie just before I taught my noon class. I didn't have another drink prepared for myself and I wouldn't be leaving the studio till 6:00 after I taught another class. My plan was to go to Whole Foods and get a green juice to hold me off.

Guess what? They don't have a juice machine any longer. Or a smoothie bar. It's been replaced by the wine bar. I would have been fine with this notion had I not been cleansing.....and hungry. So I back track past all the goodies that delight my eyes at Whole Foods and make my way further down the way to the Co-op.

I try orderng a wheatgrass shot + 16 ounces of their green energizer. Hey I needed all the energy I could get. No wheatgrass. So green juice it was. All green juice. No fruit at all. Even I had a hard time drinking this one down.

But it did the trick. I felt better. Thankfully for the yogis in my 4:30 class right?

I arrive home around 6:30 to a super cranky husband. The one that was nausea and only looking at the green juice I had on reserve for him made him more nausea. Thankfully he had sliced a tiny bit of cucumber and had this. Poor thing, he ate only a sliver of cucumber. And that was a "treat". This sorta makes me chuckle as I type.

I'm trying to be positive about how great this "cleanse" is for us. Blah blah blah. He wants no part of it. I try to excite/entice him with a "yummy smoothie". At this point he could care less. I think I made pineapple blueberry. Even I'm getting confused with which smoothies we've had at this point.

I suggest we take our smoothies and our dogs for a walk to get our minds off of food. Well lets just say that the walk this time around was the complete opposite of the one earlier in the day. At one point in which I state "It's called a detox for a reason. Have you heard of detoxing as a pleasurable experience? Did you think it was gonna be fun?"

Ouch. We've moved from a "cleanse" which sounds so pure and so sweet to "detox"...not so pure, not so sweet.

Come home and we're out of rice milk. We will need the rice milk for tomorrow's smoothies. I go to Kroger. Grocery store number 3 for the day. What's with this? I've never been to the grocery store three times in one day. And here I am....while I'm cleansing.....errr I mean detoxing.

I depart with more rice milk, fresh pineapple, and two magazines. Body + Soul for me and Men's Health for Andy. He was happy when I brought the mag home. I would soon be making make raw chocolate milk. The world seemed good again.

The raw chocolate milk tasted reallllyyy good. Soaked raw cashews for about an hour then blended them with water, raw cocao powder, coconut oil, agave nectar, vanilla, and a dash of sea salt.

Yummy goodness. Happy Andy. Happy Sharon. The chocolate milk will last 5 days in the fridge so I put more cashews in to soak. Then took myself to soak in our big, old, bath tub with my magazine.

I made more raw chocolate milk and made Andy two more smoothies for the following day (today). I counted in the evening alone and I made 8 drinks. I could make a full time job of this. :)

Check in with Andy about his numbers for the day and we're back down to all 2's. I ask him, you think you were a 2 for emotions? He says no, probably not. Lets go for a 1.

All sarcasm aside, I see such value in these cleanses. I'll get to that soon enough, I'm sure.

Happy Thursday.
Happy Earth Day. I'm feeling quite connected to you this week. One of the valuables of the cleanse.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

day 2 of spring cleanse


Day 2 was another successful day of yummy good for you eating. At least I felt it was yummy. Andy was a little less impressed with today's meals. But nonetheless he pulled through like a champ and is still on board. So proud of him! This is all a BIG stretch for him. So I'm just happy to have a cleansing buddy alongside me.

Andy's breakfast smoothie was banana and almond butter, with water as the liquid. He did however love this smoothie. He has now decided that this one was even better than the previous days and has proclaimed that he would like this one to now be his every day go to breakfast smoothie. I had a strawberry and mango smoothie with rice milk. It was de-lish. Even better than I was expecting.

Lunch was a lentil salad I had made the previous evening. I used green lentils, onions, garlic, roasted red peppers, walnuts,and olive oil. I loved the lentil salad. Did the thing where you're scraping all around the corners of your bowl to eat it all. Andy however did not love as much. He ate some and put the rest away stating that, "I might want to eat it tomorrow. I'm sure I'll love it when all I'm doing is drinking liquid." We'll see if he actually does that today. I don't think he will.

Snack was a Lara Bar for each of us. I have my fave peanut putter cookie. Andy had some coconut cream thingie. I also took an apple to the studio since I wouldn't be getting till almost 8:00. Surprisingly I felt great and didn't need the apple. I did have some hot decaf tea from Starbucks while the teen yoga class was going on at the studio. Green herabl teas are encouraged on this cleanse.

I got home and Andy was upset with our dog Bella. He was trying to get her to take her flea medicine. Had the tablet all wrapped up in a neat lil' piece of cheese. I guess she decided that she would cleanse too cause she wanted no part of it. Remy however eats his straight pill form. He will eat anything you throw to him. Andy was definitely losing his cool. It seemed urgent that she eat it then. I'm pretty certain the cleanse was not helping. I convince him that I will do it later (lucky for Bella and Andy). I had more important things to do. Like fix some dinner.

Dinner was a kale and avocado salad. Again, I thought it was great. Andy was less than impressed. I massaged olive oil and sea salt into the chopped kale then added lots of tomato, sun dried tomato and an avocado. I normally don't like kale straight up, usually choosing to juice it instead. But this was good. We also had a toasted piece of ezekiel bread.

Andy couldn't stomach the salad, he I suggested that he get something else to eat. He chose two more pieces of ezekiel bread toasted with almond butter. Thank god for the almond butter. I'm certain it got him through the day. That and the Blackhawks game he was excited to see.

After dinner I begin to prepare for the first official day of the cleanse. I make his green juice for the next morning (today) with spinach, kale, apples, cucumber, and lemon. I make two more smoothies for him also. Both are blackberry peach, rice milk at the liquid. It's been working out fine to make the smoothie the night before. I'd prefer to make the green juice totally fresh and have him drink it right away. But I don't want to get up at 6:00 in the morning. So we're trying this to see how it works.

I checked in with him at the end of the evening to see how he felt physically, energy level, emotions, intellect/focus, and happiness factor. A solid 3 for him for feeling good physically and energy level. A 2 for the other three.

I felt good yesterday. No headaches, body was good, energy level felt higher, still don't quite have the focus I'm desiring, emotions seem a little off, but feeling content.

I did get my 30 minute meditation in the morning and an hour long yoga practice. With all the cooking and juice/smoothie prep in the evening I didn't have time for the evening meditation. Completely ok with this. I'm finding that the prep work is like a whole baby itself. Preparing for two people is much more work than one I'm finding. Making some notes to make things a little easier next time.

Alrighty friend have a gllllorious day! Looks like it's gonna be a beautiful one here in central KY!

PS - pic was the fruit salad from day 1. Sadly my camera is broken now so I'm using my cell phone as needed. :)

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

recap of day 1 spring cleanse


Happy to say that Andy and I both made it through day of our pre-cleanse. No caffeine, no processed junk... both of which Andy and I had gotten into the habit of daily. Especially after all the road trips and traveling we've been doing this month.

On Sunday evening I prepared Andy's smoothie and our lunch for Monday. His smoothie was mango and spinach, I had banana and almond butter smoothie. For the liquid today I used 1 1/2 cups of water.

Andy and I had our morning chat around 8:00 in the morning just before he started to teach. While he did say that the smoothie was really good and even said, "maybe you can make me one of these for breakfast every morning", he was already thinking about the caffeine that he wouldn't be having.

Lunch was a Mediterranean salad with spinach, arugula, tomatoes, cucumber, black olives, sun dried tomatoes, and artichokes. Dressing was a simple oil and vinegar. Was happy to hear that again Andy was really enjoying the food. For a snack we each had a raw Lara Bar. These are my fave bars as of now. Love how simple yet how delicious they are.

Dinner was veggie tacos with sprouted tortillas. I cooked some onions, garlic, and bell peppers with olive oil. We also had black beans, guacamole, and salsa with them. I had laid the cheese out as an option to top the tacos with. Andy picks it up and says, "I thought we weren't supposed to have this." I replied, "Well we're still in the pre-cleasne phase so if you want some then have it." I was quite proud when he laid it down and chose not to have any. So of course I didn't either.

These were delicious and filling which both of us needed. Both of us had a little headache throughout the day and the energy level was certainly low. We couldn't put off mowing the lawn another day (unfortunately). Andy mowed and I helped rake and sweep us the grass clippings.

We did some yoga together up in my tiny sweet yoga room. Mostly me doing some thai yoga with Andy and then the two of us did legs up the wall together. We listened to Wah. It felt good. Andy departs and I stay for my second meditation of the day.

We even had dessert. I made a tasty tasty fruit salad and topped it with a macadamia cream that I made. I used strawberries, blueberries, and banana. The sauce was made with macadamia nuts, juice of an orange, vanilla, and agave nectar. Oh my, this was a yummy fruit salad. I made it all special by serving them in wine glasses.
A great way to close out the first day of cleansing.

We did go to bed at 9:30, about an hour earlier than usual. I asked Andy on a scale of 1 to 5 how we felt physically, energy level, emotions, intellect, and happiness factor. He reported a 2 on each level. I was just a tiny bit higher.

Maybe we'll get to a 2.5 or 3 today? We shall see......

Thursday, April 15, 2010

being knowing loving

Being, knowing, loving is a program that explains the three characteristics of life as described in the ancient Indian scriptures known as the Vedas.

Sat, or the potency to be, is the energy that defines who we are, what is our individuality and is the very energy that causes us to exist.

Chit, or the potency of knowledge is our ability to know. To know who we are, what is the divine and what is our relationship with the divine.

Ananda is the pleasure potency. This is the happiness, bliss and the satisfaction we feel when connected in pure love.

At the early age of eleven, BV Vishnu Swami moved into a monastery in India to live the spiritual science of Bhakti Yoga and study the philosophy of the Vedas. Though still young, he is a senior monk andtravels the world sharing the secrets of unadulterated Love.He is a close and dedicated disciple of Tridandi Swami BV Narayana,the foremost teacher of Vaisnava philosophy in the world today.

Friday April 23 at 7:30
FREE, donations will be welcomed

Enjoy lecture by BV Vishnu Swami, Kirtana and Chanting of Mantra and Free Vegan food!
Do hope you can make it to this!!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

bending over backwards



Holy moly, you've got to see this video. These cutie gals (sister act called the Ross Sisters) from the 40's sing for about 60 seconds then the feats they perform is nothing short of mind boggling!

Thanks for passing along Anne Dean! Perfect timing after working on back bends this past weekend at yoga teacher training...

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

west wind


Have you ever tried to enter the long black branches of other lives --
tried to imagine what the crisp fringes, full of honey, hanging
from the branches of the young locust trees, in early morning, feel like?

Do you think this world was only an entertainment for you?

Never to enter the sea and notice how the water divides
with perfect courtesy, to let you in!
Never to lie down on the grass, as though you were the grass!
Never to leap to the air as you open your wings over the dark acorn of your heart!

No wonder we hear, in your mournful voice, the complaint
that something is missing from your life!

Who can open the door who does not reach for the latch?
Who can travel the miles who does not put one foot
in front of the other, all attentive to what presents itself
continually?
Who will behold the inner chamber who has not observed
with admiration, even with rapture, the outer stone?

Well, there is time left --
fields everywhere invite you into them.

And who will care, who will chide you if you wander away
from wherever you are, to look for your soul?

Quickly, then, get up, put on your coat, leave your desk!

To put one's foot into the door of the grass, which is
the mystery, which is death as well as life, and
not be afraid!

To set one's foot in the door of death, and be overcome
with amazement!

To sit down in front of the weeds, and imagine
god the ten-fingered, sailing out of his house of straw,
nodding this way and that way, to the flowers of the
present hour,
to the song falling out of the mockingbird's pink mouth,
to the tippets of the honeysuckle, that have opened

in the night

To sit down, like a weed among weeds, and rustle in the wind!

Listen, are you breathing just a little, and calling it a life?

While the soul, after all, is only a window,

and the opening of the window no more difficult
than the wakening from a little sleep.

Only last week I went out among the thorns and said
to the wild roses:
deny me not,
but suffer my devotion.
Then, all afternoon, I sat among them. Maybe

I even heard a curl or tow of music, damp and rouge red,
hurrying from their stubby buds, from their delicate watery bodies.

For how long will you continue to listen to those dark shouters,
caution and prudence?
Fall in! Fall in!

A woman standing in the weeds.
A small boat flounders in the deep waves, and what's coming next
is coming with its own heave and grace.

Meanwhile, once in a while, I have chanced, among the quick things,
upon the immutable.
What more could one ask?

And I would touch the faces of the daises,
and I would bow down
to think about it.

That was then, which hasn't ended yet.

Now the sun begins to swing down. Under the peach-light,
I cross the fields and the dunes, I follow the ocean's edge.

I climb, I backtrack.
I float.
I ramble my way home.

~Mary Oliver

Monday, April 12, 2010

spring cleanse


Andy and I will be embarking on a cleanse next week! Yay, love spring!
Renewal
Rebirthing
Aliveness
Vibrancy
Succulence
Freshness

All those things plus more come to mind. Plus it's mine and Andy's wedding month, so it holds a special place in my **heart**.

Andy and I are both feeling the need to do some cleansing. Our recent trip to Indy for sports fun sorta pushed us over the edge. We've both decided that we need to make some changes. Me being a friend of the cleanses suggested that we do one together.

I was actually surprised when he agreed. The last time he tried a cleanse with me was probably seven years ago. It was a fruit and veggie cleanse. He didn't last one day. And truth be told I actually encouraged him (ok threw my hands up in frustration) when he came home from work and was super cranky pants after not having "food" or caffeine.

So I'm trying to plan this one to accomodate more of his needs than mine. I don't want it to be total torture for him. Or I'd like to miniminze the amount of torture.

This is what I have planned for next week:

PRE-CLEANSE

Day 1
• Breakfast - Fruit or Green Smoothie
• Lunch - Mediterranean Salad
• Snack - Lara Bar
• Dinner - Stuffed Bell Peppers & Kale and Avocado Salad

Day 2
• Breakfast - Fruit or Green Smoothie
• Lunch - Lentil Salad
• Snack - Fruit
• Dinner - Veggie Tacos

3 DAY CLEANSE – 3 fruit juices, 2 green juices, 1 nut milk

Day 1
1. Greens with Apple
2. Blackberry Peach
3. Blackberry Peach
4. Spinach Carrot Pineapple Cilantro
5. Blueberry Pineapple
6. Raw Chocolate Milk

Day 2
1. Greens with Apple
2. Strawberry Banana
3. Strawberry Banana
4. Spinach Blueberry Apple Lemon
5. Mixed Berry Kale
6. Cashew Milk

Day 3
1. Greens with Apple
2. Pineapple Mint
3. Pineapple Mint
4. Spinach Carrot Pineapple Cilantro
5. Mango Strawberry
6. Raw Chocolate Milk

POST CLEANSE

• Breakfast - Pineapple
• Lunch - Grapefruit and Avocado Salad
• Snack - Fruit
• Dinner - Salad

The cleanse will mesh right into my road trip the following week to Kripalu with my brother. We're doing a five day Ayurveda Spring Detox.

How about you? Any plans for a spring cleanse of any sort?

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

sports extravaganza

Wowsers, Andy and I had one fun, sports filled trip over the past few days! Here is a quick recap of my trip to Indy for yoga and sports fun:

Thursday: work/teach till 7:00, meet Sarah and we journey to Louisville to have dinner with best yoga bud Shelli. Decide to spend the night at Shelli's house and make an early start to Indianapolis for a daylong workshop with my yoga crush, Seane Corn.

Friday: Wake at 5:30 and make it just in time at 8:30 for the workshop to begin. Wasn't exactly sure what the workshop entailed. Knowing it was taught my Seane was so enough for me. It was titled The Three Realms of Consciousness and was held over the course of two days (we however only attended Friday). Bonus was that it was geared to teachers. Seane was great as I've come to expect, and to know. She just floors me every single time I'm around her. I'm not into guru's and bowing to the pretty feet of teachers. But I might think about it with her. ;) She totally inspires me and rocks my yoga world. And rocked my hammies she did. I hadn't had an active practice in almost two weeks (due to the icks) and boy....my body FELT it the next day.

Andy meets me at City Yoga at 5:30 and whisked me off to a most delicious Italian restaurant where we dines on appetizer, salad, bread, entree, and split dessert. I figured I deserved it after working so hard for Seane.

We arrive at our hotel on the north side of Indy (all downtown hotels were sold out even in Dec. when we made reservations due to Final Four). Unpack, chill, then I decide it would do my body good to sit in the hot tub. Felt oh so good to my very tired body.

Saturday: Wake and go have the best breakfast I've had in a while and definitely the most delicious coffee I've had a while too. Yumminess yogurt, granola, and fruit. Was fun seeing the fans of the college teams out and about. The crowd here was predominantly West Virginia. That made me happy, as that's the team I was cheering on for the tourney.

After a leisure breakfast we go next door to the bookstore. Yay for books! It was Borders and they had so many great books that I'd been wanting to order/buy. Cozied up in a chair with seven books to browse. Andy looks at me as if "oh great, she's gonna want to spend the day here." Sadly I could only get about an hour out of him. Purchased two new books and wrote the titles of the other five to order later. After hearing and reading about The Blueprint Cleanse, I got The 3 Day Cleanse to read during our trip. Cause you know, the books I'd brought wouldn't do. ;)

Make our way downtown and parking was surprisingly easy. We went to The Slippery Noodle, Indiana's oldest bar Andy informs me. He had been here before and really enjoys. It's a great big bar, with lots of rooms, nooks, and crannies. I rather enjoyed that. We found a place to sit next to a window....and far away from any Dukies. Enjoyed drinks, people watching, fan chanting, and such for a few hours until the first game.

You probably know the story from here. Butler and Duke win. Happy about the Butler win. Less than happy (ok terribly unhappy) about the Duke win. But oh well....there is always a new sporting event tomorrow. Andy is happy to "cheer for one of his teams." Arrive back at hotel at 12:30.

Sunday: Wake and leave by 8:30 for Chicago to watch a Blackhawks hockey game....you know, one of Andy's teams. Go to Lincoln Park to lunch on yummy deliciousness deep dish pizza. We pass Lululemon on our way in....my heart goes pitter patter. Said restaurant was closed for Easter. We pass a cute little place and decide to eat here. I have a black bean burger, fries, and a peanut butter shake as a bonus.

Little known fact about Andy is that he likes to get everywhere ridiculously early. And when it's a sporting event I can count on him wanting to arrive even earlier. And when it's HIS team....well yes, he wants to go even earlier.

I pout a teeny tiny but and convince him to take me back to Lululemon (cause you know the trip was all about him;). So very sad that it wasn't open yet. BooHoo. We pass a Starbucks just before the stadium and Andy thinks an iced mocha is just the thing to cheer me up. He's right. Thank you caffeine goodness.

The game is fun.
We cheer and high five.
Blackhawks win.
Thank you god. Andy is happy. :)

We journey back to Indianapolis. Arriving just after nine. Order Papa Johns pizza. It's not Chicago deep dish, but it will do.

Monday: Wake and check out of hotel by 9:00. There is a Trader Joes just down from our hotel and we go. Cause it's Trader Joes and I love it. Restock on car snacks and some things to bring home. Go about an hour south to Brown County, Indiana. Oh my, what a cute town. We eat lunch at Muddy Boots and I feel at immediately at home with Bluegrass music, mis-matched tables and chairs, and faux moonshine in the bathroom. :) Dined on soup and spinach salad.

Walked around and into shops. Bought a print by Kelly Rae Roberts. Just lover her stuff. Made our way back to Edinburgh to do a little outlet shopping. Discovered that Champion had one of my fave yoga tops. Went to purchase two, learned that I could save 40% off if I bought one more item. Decided to get another top to equal three. Now I have 4 of the same tops. A bit overkill? Perhaps, but I got my fave colors.

Check into new hotel. Rest for about an hour then go thirty miles north again for the game. Dined at a burrito place at the mall. It was so crowded. I was happy when Andy and I walked back to the convention center to find a much more quiet area. Thank god for introverted husbands, much like their introverted wives. I'm beginning to have my fill of crowds. And people in general.

One more game to go. And over 70,000 more people.

The Butler/Duke was so very exciting to watch. I have to admit that my fave part was cheering/booing Coach K. I know, terrible. What can I say? It's Duke.

We all know the outcome. Duke wins. Andy loves watching "One Shining Moment". We both decided the moment wasn't gonna be so shiny with a Duke win and bailed as soon as the game was over.

Arrive back at hotel after 1:00.

Wake at 8:00, eat breakfast, and dash hOMe.

Oh, home sweet home
how I've missed you.
And have you always been this quiet?
Thank you.

Sunday, April 04, 2010

another world


“Another world is not only possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing.”
~Arundhati Roy

Thursday, April 01, 2010

self care and the monsters


I've been a little sick over the past week. I'll spare you the whiny details of this and choose to chat about something I find much more interesting than the actual sickness. Which is how one chooses to care for oneself while feeling icky.

My sickness came about at a rather unfortunate time, just days before a weekend meeting for yoga teacher training. I've professed numerous time how much I love leading and being a part of this amazing process. It really means A LOT to me.

As Friday drew closer, I cancelled a private yoga session, laid in bed feeling like I didn't have the energy to do anything, and debating the best decision I could make for myself and the teacher trainees.

Choose to teach and give less than my best self (and risk making others sick) or choose to teach the portions I could and hand the rest of the weekend over to the other talented and knowledgeable yoga teachers that also teach.

After much debate in my mind and with my husband I decided on the latter. But it was so hard for me. The monsters (you know the ones) reared their heads and made not so nice statements...

"You're a yogi, you're not supposed to get sick. What kind of example are you setting?"
"So what if you're a little sick Suck it up and push through."

Ultimately the part of me that knows that taking care of myself must come first if I am to give and share the very best of myself and yogic teachings with others.

However, I didn't do this with such grace and ease. I was amazed over the amount of guilt I was feeling for being sick, for not being present. It left me feeling less than worthy.

This is clearly a work in progress for me. I certainly haven't figured it out, but I'll definitely work with processing it some more. Move with it, meditate with it, and write about it.

The art of self care minus the guilt. To love oneself fully and unconditionally with no strings attached is a beautiful thought.

Receiving a sweet note from a yoga teacher trainee helped me to feel much better about my decision...

"Sharon---thanks for modeling some great self-care and taking some time to rest. I really admire your willingness to say, even though it's a training weekend, my health is still the important thing and trusting your other teachers to handle it even without you. You were missed but know that you taught us even in your ...absence just by using wisdom. Blessings and hope you are back to full strength soon. Namaste!"

Happy April dear yoga friends! May the sun kiss your shoulders and warm your soul.