Tuesday, September 29, 2009

zoom & boom

Here's what I say:
We will ignore the cult of doom and gloom
and embrace the cause of zoom and boom.

We will laugh at the stupidity of evil and hate,
and summon the brilliance of praise and create...

Life is crazily in love with us - wildly and innocently in love with us.

The universe always gives us exactly what we need, exactly when we need it."
~Rob Breszny

Monday, September 28, 2009

i go out walking

In an attempt to see the beauty in the ordinary everyday, I decided to record my walk from my house to the coffee shop (my monday morning ritual).

And the sky is BLUE today! Since it's been such a long time with gray skies, it looks even more beautiful and magical.

This is the cemetary that I always walk in. On a good Monday, I get three walks in here. Once with the dogs, once with Andy and the dogs, and once with me and the ipod.

This house sits at the end of our street (or beginning, depending on which direction you're going). It's the oldest house on our street and for most of my four years of living in Nicholasville it's been neglected and abandoned. It's now being shaped, tidied, and prettied up and being rented as office space. Each week I look in the windows to see any new develpments.
The brick is old and beautiful. I think it speaks to you.
And our courthouse sits on a wee hill and looks all grand (and a little leaning here, eh?)
A nice little wine bar.
And pretty buildings. With more blue sky.
And a great little wine shop (I'm seeing a trend).
And horse-ey parking meters. Of course, you're in KY.
And that's "my" window seat at the cofee shop.
Since it's taken I happily take a spot under these beautiful horses where I sip a chai tea latte and laugh out loud reading the Lifestyly Refugee blog, "Honey what the hell are we doing in Mexico." It's just what I need.

Have a happy happy Monday. :)

Friday, September 25, 2009

heart full

Yesterday I taught the gals at Florence Crittenton Home. Or perhaps I should say that they taught me. When I arrived yesterday the babysitter have left for the day. So it was me, some super cute (and tired) teenage gals, and five of the cutest babies I've seen in a while.

The gals impressed me when they stated, "we still want to do yoga and work on some breathing and relaxation." I can now see that even with the supper cute kiddos around they NEEDED this time.

The babies were on there best behaviors at that time so I just suggested that we let them sit in their little bouncy chairs over to the side where we could keep a close eye on them.

We then explored breathing. I let them breathe naturally and study their breath. We then had a conversation about the most effective and efficient was of breathing. We talked about how they could use their breathing in stressful times and how it can help remind them to stay in the present moment.

We sat on the floor, close to one another, legs outstretched and did a few super simple seated poses. I was reminded of how little it was about the stretch and the poses, what they looked like. What they could and couldn't do.

It was so much more about connecting and hoping that in those 45 minuted together I could somehow help them to connect to their beauty, their joy, their gifts, their courage.

I realized that really what I always want to remind and teach myself, students at the studio and pretty much everyone I share is essentially self love. As crazy (and corny) as that might sound. When we let go of the doubts, fears, judgements, and so on we are moving to a place of love. And if self love fills like really big shoes to fill, perhaps we can at least like ourselves for what and who we are today.

So as I drove away from Florence Crittenton Home my heart felt so big and FULL I thought it might explode. My hope is to move forward into my weekend of teaching in Hazard with this heart full ness. Cause I gotta tell ya....it feels pretty damn good. ;)

Thursday, September 24, 2009

on getting quiet & letting go

Hi there, it's me....peeking in and saying hi here on blogland. When the people go MIA on the blogs that I read I wonder what's going on....are they ok? Perhaps they are traveling? Maybe they're sad or mad? Funny how I do that. Wondering where they are and wishing they were providing me with some entertaining reading. :)

I'm doing really good and have been spending time lots of time working (Hazard training,retreat planning) learning (hello spanish & yoga therapy), and playing (mid day movies, mondo beyondo and general dreaming).

It seems that I go in spurts here on the blog. Sometimes I'm feeling all open and chatty wanting to share everything that's on my mind and in my heart at that particular moment. Other moments I prefer to be quiet. To be like the turtle choosing to close up in its shell. To not share and not put myself out there so openly. I've been spending a lot more time writing in my journal which has been so nice.

Someone did ask me in an email this morning about the mondo beyondo course that I've been taking. We're now in the fifth and final week. The e-course has been so much fun. And good.

I've followed Andrea and Jen's blogs for a long time so I really just wanted to be a part of anything they were doing! It's really helped me to get clear about what I really wish and hope for in my future. It's been an interesting process.

I've come to understand that there is a reason (even if we can't understand or don't know) that we have our particular dreams. And I believe that we already have everything we need (not necessarily talking about money) in order to fulfill and live our dreams. We just have to peel back the layers of negativity, self doubt, fear, anger, etc. and then we see what and who we really are. And just how much we are really capable of.

So I've made a big long list of new dreams. I had thought that I would share here. But again, I'm feeling more quiet so I've opted to only read them out loud to one other person, Andy. He didn't laugh out loud (just a snicker), or yell at me.

For a while I felt like I was trying to control the unwinding and the happening of some dreams. Something I have a tendency to do sometimes. It's certainly more of a challenge for me to loosen the grip, do some work and let the universe do it's fair share too. I think I have...to...do...it....all. And I also found the more I controlled, the less fun the process was.

So I gave my dreams one final read over the other night then I stuffed them underneath my mattress. I've let go a lil bit more and every night I feel comforted knowing that I sleep atop my wishes and the things, people, places, and opportunities my heart desires. This certainly puts a smile on my face as I drift off into a deep slumber.

Getting quiet. Letting go. One more time.

Monday, September 21, 2009

yoga therapy

This weekends yoga therapy training with Ginger (and David) was really quite amazing. Ginger is an amazing teacher with a great skill in blending the west and the east. In holding true to philosophy of yoga but also honorig the research that's been done in the west and teaching from that perspective. She is strong in her beliefs and passionate about her program and yoga. I had the good fortune to do the Level 2 training last Fall and this weekends was Level 1 (yeah I flipped them around).

It was so nice to be on the receiving end of the yoga training. To get to be fully present as a student. To ask questions. To explore the poses differently. To think differently. To meet people from across the US and share in yoga. AND I got to learn alongside a few student at Barefoot Works and that was really cool!

Ginger's approach to asana is intriging, exciting and refreshing to approach all the poses from a therapeutic standpoint. My intention for doing these trainings is to be the best, most well rounded yoga teacher that I can be. To share yoga in a way that is safe and celebrated. To have this information to share in our yoga teacher training, and to work with private clients. I also feel somewhere in my mind, and my heart that these yoga therapy trainings may someday be used in my home of Appalachia. I see such value here.

During my home yoga practice today I explored some things that we worked on this weekend. My plan is to practice in this way and see what will work for me and my body. Then to share in my yoga classes. I have a few plans for doing so. So come on out for class and let me share with you!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

classes this weekend

A reminder that we will not have the Friday noon class tomorrow (Sept 18) and weather permitting, Saturday and Sunday morning classes will be held outside. I'll be spending the weekend up in the yoga tree house learning all sorts of yoga therapy goodness. :)

Hope you have an ahhhmazing weekend friends!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

enjoying the moment

“Traveler, there is no path. Paths are made by walking.” ~Antonio Machado

It's been a few days since I've visited the blog. I've been out of town teaching a lot, and the act of teaching a lot has led me to spending lots of time outside over the past few days, connecting with people I need to connect with, and unplugging from the computer (with the exception of the online Mondo Beyondo tribe which is so much fun).

On Thursday I left after my morning class to go home (to Perry County) to lead a fall yoga teacher training that is held in Hazard at the college. I got to spend time with my family. Outside of work, I had the pleasure of a date with my mom to the Appalachian Artisan Center & an Amish bulk food store and a date with my 14 year old niece. This included a trip to Wal-Mart and dinner (there wasn't much going on). When did she become a teenager?!

I taught yoga for 23 hours over the course of 2.5 days. It was intense in many ways but so gratifying and exhilarating in others. On my drive home I listened to an Alanis Moriseete song (thanks Brian for including this on your yoga mix and sharing with me). One sentence completely grabbed ahold of me and nearly shook me at the shoulders...

"How about enjoying the moment for once." Ahh thank you Alanis for this. It was just what I needed to snap out of the fretting over the details and the little worries about the group dynamic, the location, and of course me and my abilities.

Ultimately this sentence in this one song reminded to let go of the worries, the fear, the insecurity and rest in a place of knowing, believing, and enjoying. The moment.

I reminded myself that I was fulfilling one of my mondo beyondo dreams. I was doing something that was HUGE and that literally meant so very much to me. Going back home and sharing yoga with this community is beyond words for me. The town in which I grew up (Vicco) now has a population of about 250 people and the annual median income is $13,000. Statistics show that people (my family) in Appalachia do not fare well. They have much stacked against them. There is little health education and tiny emphasis on preventative care. And this is just the tip of the iceberg.

This community needs yoga. And I'm lucky enough to play an active part in sharing the teaching of yoga. Yes, finally allowing myself to enjoy the moment for once. And it feels good. Thinking I'll do it a bit more often. :)

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

three years of BW today!

I just got home from our lil' celebration that included a day of free yoga, henna, stamped bookmarks, eats, treats & fellow yoga friends.

I've been running around most of the day, either prepping to teach, teaching (taught a private and two classes), sending emails, running errands to the bank, Wal-Mart, Kroger, Liquor Barn (for the water silly). I could never be one of these gals that throws the BIG parties. It's just too much work for me. I'm good with a little celebrating on the front porch at the studio. :)

Enjoy a few pics! Thank all of you for allowing me to do what I love so very dearly.
Here's to many more years of yoga love!

Friday, September 04, 2009

holding togetherness

I love the idea of this. I've had the great joy of taking TWO yoga classes at the studio in the past 17 hours! Ahhh, such de-light. Jeanne subbed for Sarah last night and taught such a beautiful class and Lisa taught our brand new yinyasa class today at noon. I am so very proud of these two gals. They are both such wonderful new additions to teaching staff.

I especially loved it after class when Sarah said to Lisa, "You are such a perfect fit for Barefoot Works." And I nodded it agreement. So happy on the inside that Barefoot Works continues to draw such great souls in students and teachers. Holding. Such. Togetherness.

Which leaves me feeling very happy. Very giddy. It's been a good week and good stuff coming up. The online Mondo Beyondo class is really inspiring me (plan to post my updated list of dreams next week). I begin leading the Fall yoga training in Hazard next week, our NC yoga retreat is nearly filled with excited yoginis, trip to the lake this weekend, upcoming yoga therapy training at the studio, I'm learning Spanish, and did I mention I'm going to Mexico, AND I took two classes at the studio?!

Meanwhile I'm reading "The Wishing Year" by Noelle Oxenhandler (which is really good). I've dogeared a few pages that I come back to and re-read, re-think.
Here is a fave passage:

"It's something that is often remarked about the Mexican people, and on that day I saw it with my own eyes: their ability to hold together, in one embrace, the awareness of suffering and the celebration of earthly happiness."

Love. That. So while I'm sitting here going on about all the goodness, I am dealing with struggles and pain that exists very much in the lives of family that I love dearly.

Thankfully yoga has taught me how to stay connected to my center while the suffering swirls around me. Yoga has taught me to find the balance of it all. The good. The bad. And at times, the ugly. Yoga has taught me how to hold it together.

Hoping it does the same for you when you most need it to.

**All classes are held as scheduled this weekend and Monday. Have a safe and happy weekend.**

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

and still i rise

This is good. Really good. Enjoy....

doing things that scare us

I started Spanish lessons with Andy yesterday.

And I bought "the" plane ticket. To Mexico of course. Where else?

It took a little bit of courage in my part. Not the Spanish lessons so much but yes with the place ticket. Why? Because I had planned to do something this fall for "professional development". I was looking at spending four days in NYC for MindBody University (yep a whole conference for the software we use at the studio) or Level 3 Yoga Therapy in North Carolina.

I questioned myself and pondered if this was the best way to invest my money? Was this the best way to spend taking time away from the studio? Would Andy understand my need to go?

The left side of my brain, the one that is so much business said to go with NYC or NC. But the right side of my brain, and my heart told me to go to Tulum. To go there, take yoga classes two times a day, to eat fresh food, to get the most healing treatments ever, to sweat it out at the sweat lodge, to rest, and let the sea wash my stresses away.

So that's what I'm doing.

Learning Spanish and spending more time in Mexico are both on my Mondo Beyondo dream list. I feel like yesterday I took two small steps and the universe carried me an additional two steps. And that my friend is such a delight-full feeling.

So what about you....can you do anything today that may be a bit scary but move you forward towards a dream you hold in your heart?